Doubting the Lord's goodness!
“So we can say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper, so I will have no fear. What can mere people do to me?” (NLT) Hebrews 13:6
So I was listening to the song by Laura Story entitled “Blessings” and I caught this phrase: “doubting the Lord’s goodness”. It reminded me how badly I needed to write an article to express God’s awesomeness. I cannot tell if you have ever doubted God to do something in your life or that you are even thinking that the situation you find yourself in now, nothing can be done about it?
At a point in my life I was also in this situation; doubting God’s goodness. Clearly I didn’t rule out that God can do it. Actually I believed that He is in control and will make all work in His own time. But what I didn’t do was to stop worrying. Worrying created a fear that lingered in my heart. So whether I trusted Him at all, it made no difference. I realized I was not better off than the one that even emphatically doubted God’s ability to work in his or her life.
So what did I do? I knew that I didn’t want this fear to consume me. I went to God in my desperation. I talked to him as would a daughter to his father. I shared my fears with believers, who obviously encouraged me with God’s word. But did God answer? Did He speak to me? I know these questions are bursting from your heart.
I don’t know how to explain it better to you. There was no indication from God. So I did best what I knew in Psalm 62: 1-2 “I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will never be shaken”. To my surprise issues got tougher, confusion set in, more challenges were thrown at me, had to make some difficult decisions, found myself weeping before him every night in bed or quietly as I sit in the bus.
In the wait, I took all the available opportunity that came my way, the difficult as well as the light issues and in my tears, I found a different level of trust. I began to deeply contemplate on how far the Lord has brought me, the special favours He bestowed on me among many others. Beloved I felt at peace and my fears for some reason was lost. I saw God for who He is. He is the one that answers by Fire, He whose plans are better than mine.
I decided to share my testimony through this article, that not only did God in His own time give me my heart desire but equally put a new song in my mouth. He has grounded my faith and I believe that was the lesson I was to learn: an unshakeable faith (Hebrews 12:1- the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen...), even if it’s latter than we anticipated.
Beloved in our human body, difficult times will come as Christians, causing us to doubt God’s goodness in our lives. But rather than letting it weigh you down, go to God and confess to him. Trust in Him and let the doubt know that your God is good in all situations. It is His goodness that has brought us this far and it is this same goodness that will surely take us where we hope to be here on earth and in the life to come (heaven).